And THIS is why all boys should learn to play JB on their guitars....

So. Saturday.

Derek Marsden played his guitar for me.

And sang.

My second favorite JB song (One Time acoustic)

Therefore my second favorite song ever.

Yes, sir.

Color me twitter-pated.

**Okay, so I just tried four bajillion times to upload the video, but it's not working. Just pretend there's a super awesome video of Derek singing to me with me adding in a few cute little harmonies. The end. **

So far this is what senior year has been like:

One day more. . .

Today during family scripture study, my dad decided to let this bomb loose:

"You know, Emily, today is your last day of summer vacation. Ever."

Wow.

Even though I knew it was coming, it totally stunned me to hear him say it like that. Today IS my last day of summer vacation! A year from now, I won't be freaking out about whether I should have bought the peach cardigan or the purple one, or if there's going to be anyone I know in my English class.

No, I'll be freaking out about if I'll be able to afford rent and if I'm going to starve to death because I can't cook.

Scary, scary business.

As excited as I am to grow up and get out into the world and all that jazz, today I realized just how terrifying that is. Here's a hint: really, really terrifying.

But I guess I have all year long to worry about the future {where I'm going to college, what I'm going to major in, who I'm going to be, and other inconsequential decisions}.

So for now, I'll just hop in the car - with my newly obtained driver's license - finish up my school shopping, try to wrap up the summer bucket list {yeah, yeah, I know it ain't gonna happen, but a girl can dream, right?}, and somehow prep myself for senior year.

So, deep breaths everybody. Somehow we'll get through this.

Guess who's now a licensed driver?

This kid.

Even if I did have to label my hands "left" and "right".

So lately

I have been not in quite the right mood. Not exactly sad, but not really happy. Super stressed out, that's for sure, kind of bummed about different things, and not my usual chipper self. You saw the face I was makin' Tuesday.

BUT THEN.

-I was able to go to the temple Tuesday after all {Oquirrh Mountain which was BEAUTIFUL! Plus, my good friend Dallas was able to perform the ordinances which was super cool}

-I learned how to polka at musical. How could this not make you happy?

-I was able to complete ALL of Act I and Act II of The Crazy Escape PERFECTLY. Didn't fudge on a single line.

-I went to a fun back-to-school picnic with the wardies.

-I got a text from a dear friend letting me know he cares.

-I remembered the entire dance for Many A New Day and didn't injure anyone during the skipping line {YES!}

-I fixed my schedule so I can be in seminary! {Even if I have to be in AP Lit all by my lonesome}

-I went to lunch with some sweet girls who reminded me why I love musical.

-I got to go to {and sort of plan} a birthday shindig for a friend I kind of lost track of and haven't seen in a while. It was good to reconnect.

-I remembered why I love my friends so much {a) they're hilarious b) they're hilarious c) they're hilarious}

-I saw my role model {Jane P. Busk} and realized that we'll still be friends, even if she skipped out on musical this year.

So yeah, life's pretty great. What was up with all the whining I was doing? Honestly, some people. Am I right?

And this the face I'm makin' today

This is the face you make when:

-you feel jipped because summer school and musical stole your summer

-you try to get your friends to the temple on a beautiful tuesday morning and nothing goes your way.

-senior year starts in less than two weeks

-you need to be able to drive, and you don't get your driver's license for one more week

-your director of the insane play you're in is mad you're not putting more effort into said play, but it's so hard to be dedicated to something you don't care about.

-you still need to read all three books required for your ap lit class.

-you have a million and a half things to do and zero motivation.

-your big sister/best friend is leaving in two weeks and you honestly don't know how to do any of this without her.

and perhaps the worst:

-you can't find your Never Say Never cd no matter where you look - and you've looked EVERYWHERE.

does anyone know lamaze breathing?